Reached for: Backgammon
“Set me a problem and I'll take it apart. That's when I'm actually in the room.”
Contest is required in order to feel present, and each challenge is entered as an audition rather than as a game. The requirement was set by a father who granted contact only in exchange for intellectual ferocity, so the mind was trained as a weapon and affection became the prize in a fight. What it asks for is one room where nothing is being proved.
Cú Chulainn, sent away to be trained in arms and known ever afterwards for what he could do in a fight rather than for anything else about him. The form implies a task of being met unarmed.
- Essence
- Earned Worth
- Rule
- I was addressed only when I was winning
- Substance / Activity
- Games of skill, competition, intellectual contest
- Archetype
- Cú Chulainn
- Emotional theme
- Existence requiring proof
- Behavioural pattern
- Compulsive competitive self-proving conducted in the mental arena
- Family dynamic
- An intellectually demanding father who accepted only ferocious performance as grounds for contact
- Core wound
- I was addressed only when I was winning
- Exit
- Sitting with someone while nothing is at stake
What is the "Reached for: Backgammon" pattern?
Contest is required in order to feel present, and each challenge is entered as an audition rather than as a game. The requirement was set by a father who granted contact only in exchange for intellectual ferocity, so the mind was trained as a weapon and affection became the prize in a fight. What it asks for is one room where nothing is being proved.
What does "Reached for: Backgammon" sound like when it shows up?
Set me a problem and I'll take it apart. That's when I'm actually in the room.
What is the archetypal form of "Reached for: Backgammon"?
Cú Chulainn, sent away to be trained in arms and known ever afterwards for what he could do in a fight rather than for anything else about him. The form implies a task of being met unarmed.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.