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Reached for: Ice

There's something in the cold and the crunch that settles me. I go through bags of it.

The mouth is given something hard and freezing to work at, over and over, in place of a warmth that failed to arrive at the beginning. Behind the craving sits a first year with a mother who was absent, distracted or plainly cold, and a rage about it that has never had a sanctioned direction. What it asks for is naming the anger sitting directly beneath the appetite.

The Archetypal Form

Ymir, the first giant, nourished in a world made of frost and formed out of whatever the ice would give. The form implies a task of asking warmth from something living.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Unfed
Rule
What I was given at the start had no warmth in it
Classification
Substance / Activity
Ice, cold hard things held and chewed
Archetype
Ymir
Emotional theme
Deprivation rage
Behavioural pattern
Compulsive oral substitution for early nurture, carrying unexpressed anger
Family dynamic
An unavailable, distracted, neglectful or cold mother in the first year
Core wound
What I was given at the start had no warmth in it
Exit
Letting the anger under the craving be spoken rather than swallowed
Frequently asked
What is the "Reached for: Ice" pattern?

The mouth is given something hard and freezing to work at, over and over, in place of a warmth that failed to arrive at the beginning. Behind the craving sits a first year with a mother who was absent, distracted or plainly cold, and a rage about it that has never had a sanctioned direction. What it asks for is naming the anger sitting directly beneath the appetite.

What does "Reached for: Ice" sound like when it shows up?

There's something in the cold and the crunch that settles me. I go through bags of it.

What is the archetypal form of "Reached for: Ice"?

Ymir, the first giant, nourished in a world made of frost and formed out of whatever the ice would give. The form implies a task of asking warmth from something living.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.

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