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Reached for: Vegetarianism

There's a right way to do this that I haven't found yet, so I'm not committing to anything until I do.

It shows up as a search for the flawless solution, a purity of approach held out against a childhood family that made everything wrong, so that landing on any actual choice risks being wrong again. The seeking looks like high standards; underneath is a deflection of responsibility and a distrust of one's own verdict. What it asks for is to make one ordinary imperfect choice and stand on it.

The Archetypal Form

The Flying Dutchman, condemned to sail on in search of a harbor he can never quite make, the perfect landfall always one more storm away. The form implies a task: to drop anchor in an imperfect port.

The Algorithm
Essence
Untrusted Judgment
Rule
My judgment was never allowed to be right, so I keep looking for the answer that can't be faulted.
Classification
Substance / Activity
Purism, the perfect approach, the flawless solution
Archetype
The Flying Dutchman
Emotional theme
Distrust of one's own verdict, from being made wrong
Behavioural pattern
Anti-analytic seeking of the perfect solution; activity-avoidance and responsibility-deflection
Family dynamic
A wrong-making family whose standards were never met
Core wound
My family made everything I did wrong, so I keep hunting the one flawless choice that finally can't be faulted.
Exit
Making one imperfect choice and standing on it.
Frequently asked
What is the "Reached for: Vegetarianism" pattern?

It shows up as a search for the flawless solution, a purity of approach held out against a childhood family that made everything wrong, so that landing on any actual choice risks being wrong again. The seeking looks like high standards; underneath is a deflection of responsibility and a distrust of one's own verdict. What it asks for is to make one ordinary imperfect choice and stand on it.

What does "Reached for: Vegetarianism" sound like when it shows up?

There's a right way to do this that I haven't found yet, so I'm not committing to anything until I do.

What is the archetypal form of "Reached for: Vegetarianism"?

The Flying Dutchman, condemned to sail on in search of a harbor he can never quite make, the perfect landfall always one more storm away. The form implies a task: to drop anchor in an imperfect port.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.

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