Carried: Birth (Complications) (II)
“I'm carrying this and I'm not certain I want it — not this way, not under these conditions.”
The doubt runs on the receiving side of a birth: whether a child is wanted, whether this child is, whether the circumstances can hold one. It rarely gets said, because the saying of it seems unforgivable, so it stays in the body and shows up in the labour of arrival. Behind it is often a welcome that was not given at one's own beginning, which leaves no template for extending a welcome now. What the shape asks for is the ambivalence spoken to someone before the delivery does the speaking.
Rebekah, feeling the struggle inside her and asking plainly why any of this should be happening to her. The form implies a task: to ask the question out loud rather than carry it.
- Essence
- The Unfed
- Rule
- No one was glad when I arrived, so I don't know how to be glad about this.
- Body zone
- Birth; the labour of a delivery under doubt
- Archetype
- Rebekah
- Emotional theme
- Ambivalence about having a child; fear of the conditions surrounding it
- Behavioural pattern
- Unspoken reservation about the pregnancy; complications in place of a stated doubt
- Family dynamic
- An unwelcoming reception at one's own birth, leaving no model for welcoming another
- Core wound
- No one was glad when I arrived, so I don't know how to be glad about this.
- Exit
- Saying the doubt out loud to one person before the birth speaks it.
What is the "Carried: Birth (Complications) (II)" pattern?
The doubt runs on the receiving side of a birth: whether a child is wanted, whether this child is, whether the circumstances can hold one. It rarely gets said, because the saying of it seems unforgivable, so it stays in the body and shows up in the labour of arrival. Behind it is often a welcome that was not given at one's own beginning, which leaves no template for extending a welcome now. What the shape asks for is the ambivalence spoken to someone before the delivery does the speaking.
What does "Carried: Birth (Complications) (II)" sound like when it shows up?
I'm carrying this and I'm not certain I want it — not this way, not under these conditions.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Birth (Complications) (II)"?
Rebekah, feeling the struggle inside her and asking plainly why any of this should be happening to her. The form implies a task: to ask the question out loud rather than carry it.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.