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Carried: Cheek Problems

There's a low shame in me about who and what I am that follows me everywhere.

It shows up as a free-floating shame about one's very being, a diffuse sense of I-suck that attaches to who and what one is, tangled with conflict about self-expression and one's own emotional reactivity. The shame has no single cause it can point to; it just is. It was generated by a denigrating, wrong-making family who were alarmed by who the person was. What it asks for is one experience of being met, as oneself, without the flinch.

The Archetypal Form

The ugly duckling, made to feel wrong and unwelcome for a nature the barnyard was simply alarmed by, ashamed of a self that was never the problem. The form implies a task: to be met by those who are not alarmed by what one is.

The Algorithm
Essence
Wrong at the Root
Rule
There's something shameful in who and what I am, and it follows me everywhere.
Classification
Body zone
The cheeks; the face's flush of shame at one's own nature
Archetype
The Ugly Duckling
Emotional theme
A free-floating shame about one's very being
Behavioural pattern
Diffuse shame about who and what one is; conflict about self-expression
Family dynamic
A denigrating, wrong-making family alarmed by who the person was
Core wound
There's something shameful in who and what I am, and it follows me everywhere.
Exit
One experience of being met, as oneself, without the flinch.
Frequently asked
What is the "Carried: Cheek Problems" pattern?

It shows up as a free-floating shame about one's very being, a diffuse sense of I-suck that attaches to who and what one is, tangled with conflict about self-expression and one's own emotional reactivity. The shame has no single cause it can point to; it just is. It was generated by a denigrating, wrong-making family who were alarmed by who the person was. What it asks for is one experience of being met, as oneself, without the flinch.

What does "Carried: Cheek Problems" sound like when it shows up?

There's a low shame in me about who and what I am that follows me everywhere.

What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Cheek Problems"?

The ugly duckling, made to feel wrong and unwelcome for a nature the barnyard was simply alarmed by, ashamed of a self that was never the problem. The form implies a task: to be met by those who are not alarmed by what one is.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.

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