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#145

Carried: Lameness

I made myself less than I am on purpose, because I learned early that my full force frightened people.

It shows as a self-imposed handicap, a deliberate hobbling of one's own considerable force to reassure others it will not run roughshod over them, after learning young that one's full potency was felt as a threat. The diminishment is protective, aimed at others' comfort. What it asks for is to stop crippling one's own strength and learn to carry it without flattening anyone.

The Archetypal Form

Claudius, who wore a limp and a stammer and let himself be taken for a harmless fool, and by seeming no threat survived a family that destroyed its stronger sons. The form implies a task: to set down the protective weakness once it is safe to be seen as strong.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Withheld Fire
Rule
I learned my full force frightened people, so I made myself less than I am on purpose.
Classification
Body zone
A self-imposed handicap; force deliberately dampened
Archetype
Claudius
Emotional theme
Diminishing one's own strength to seem non-threatening
Behavioural pattern
Hobbling one's potency to reassure others it won't run roughshod
Family dynamic
Learning early that one's full force was felt by others as a threat
Core wound
I learned my full force frightened people, so I made myself less than I am on purpose.
Exit
Carrying one's full strength with care, rather than disabling it.
Frequently asked
What is the "Carried: Lameness" pattern?

It shows as a self-imposed handicap, a deliberate hobbling of one's own considerable force to reassure others it will not run roughshod over them, after learning young that one's full potency was felt as a threat. The diminishment is protective, aimed at others' comfort. What it asks for is to stop crippling one's own strength and learn to carry it without flattening anyone.

What does "Carried: Lameness" sound like when it shows up?

I made myself less than I am on purpose, because I learned early that my full force frightened people.

What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Lameness"?

Claudius, who wore a limp and a stammer and let himself be taken for a harmless fool, and by seeming no threat survived a family that destroyed its stronger sons. The form implies a task: to set down the protective weakness once it is safe to be seen as strong.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.