Carried: Osteo-Myelitis (Inflammation of the bones)
“I've held everything up alone in a world I never felt held by, and my very frame aches with it.”
It runs as a quarrel with the ground of things, a fear and anger at the very structure of the universe and the nature of life, a felt total lack of support or safety, carried by someone who became the pillar of strength and family hoist in a depriving childhood. The self-reliance is real and it rests on a conviction that nothing underneath will hold. The clinical name is a shape, not a diagnosis. What it asks for is one experience of being supported, so the frame is not the only thing holding.
Vainamoinen, the ancient singer who carried the world's lore alone through a cold and unhelping cosmos, holding up more than any one being should have to. The form implies a task: to be held by something outside oneself, for once.
- Essence
- Betrayed Order
- Rule
- Nothing was ever there to hold me, so I hold it all up alone.
- Body zone
- The bones and their marrow, inflamed; the body's own frame, and a quarrel with the structure of things
- Archetype
- Vainamoinen
- Emotional theme
- A conviction that nothing underneath will hold; no felt safety
- Behavioural pattern
- Total self-reliance as the pillar of strength, over a quarrel with the nature of life
- Family dynamic
- A depriving childhood in which the person had to be the family's pillar of strength
- Core wound
- Nothing was ever there to hold me, so I hold it all up alone.
- Exit
- One experience of being supported, so the frame isn't the only thing holding.
What is the "Carried: Osteo-Myelitis (Inflammation of the bones)" pattern?
It runs as a quarrel with the ground of things, a fear and anger at the very structure of the universe and the nature of life, a felt total lack of support or safety, carried by someone who became the pillar of strength and family hoist in a depriving childhood. The self-reliance is real and it rests on a conviction that nothing underneath will hold. The clinical name is a shape, not a diagnosis. What it asks for is one experience of being supported, so the frame is not the only thing holding.
What does "Carried: Osteo-Myelitis (Inflammation of the bones)" sound like when it shows up?
I've held everything up alone in a world I never felt held by, and my very frame aches with it.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Osteo-Myelitis (Inflammation of the bones)"?
Vainamoinen, the ancient singer who carried the world's lore alone through a cold and unhelping cosmos, holding up more than any one being should have to. The form implies a task: to be held by something outside oneself, for once.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.