Carried: Sacroiliac Problems (Juncture of the hip bone and the lower spine)
“I don't feel like the cause of my own life, and around power, especially the sexual kind, I brace for it to be misused.”
It runs as a felt powerlessness at one's own centre, a sense of being at the mercy of events rather than the cause of one's life, braced against the seductive-destructive misuse of power, especially the sexual, in oneself and others. Sexuality itself is severely conflicted and suppressed, the person poorly integrated and multi-directionally thwarted, not knowing which way to turn. It was set by a seduce-then-slap, self-immersed and domineering mother. Where this is live, its work belongs with someone trained to help. What it asks for is to feel like the cause of one small movement of one's own.
Joseph, propositioned by the one who held power over him and then punished with a lie when he refused, thrown down for a wrong that was never his. The form implies a task: to become the cause of one's own next step.
- Essence
- The Misplaced Shame
- Rule
- Power, especially the sexual kind, gets misused, and I'm at its effect, not its cause.
- Body zone
- The sacroiliac joint; the seat of will and sexuality, made unsafe and thwarted
- Archetype
- Joseph
- Emotional theme
- Powerlessness and a dread of the misuse of power, especially the sexual
- Behavioural pattern
- Feeling at effect rather than at cause; conflicted, suppressed sexuality; multi-directional thwartedness
- Family dynamic
- A seduce-then-slap, self-immersed and domineering mother
- Core wound
- My mother drew me in then struck me down, so around power, especially the sexual kind, I brace to be its effect, never its cause.
- Exit
- Feeling like the cause of one small movement of one's own.
What is the "Carried: Sacroiliac Problems (Juncture of the hip bone and the lower spine)" pattern?
It runs as a felt powerlessness at one's own centre, a sense of being at the mercy of events rather than the cause of one's life, braced against the seductive-destructive misuse of power, especially the sexual, in oneself and others. Sexuality itself is severely conflicted and suppressed, the person poorly integrated and multi-directionally thwarted, not knowing which way to turn. It was set by a seduce-then-slap, self-immersed and domineering mother. Where this is live, its work belongs with someone trained to help. What it asks for is to feel like the cause of one small movement of one's own.
What does "Carried: Sacroiliac Problems (Juncture of the hip bone and the lower spine)" sound like when it shows up?
I don't feel like the cause of my own life, and around power, especially the sexual kind, I brace for it to be misused.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Sacroiliac Problems (Juncture of the hip bone and the lower spine)"?
Joseph, propositioned by the one who held power over him and then punished with a lie when he refused, thrown down for a wrong that was never his. The form implies a task: to become the cause of one's own next step.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.