Carried: Shivering
“I raised myself from the very start, and a part of me has been braced and alone ever since.”
It shows as an abandonment-anxiety and a low, continuous grief traced to having had to rear oneself from the beginning, a maternal deprivation that left no one to hold or warm the child. The body keeps the chill of it. What it asks for is to let another's steadiness be leaned on now, in place of the self-reliance that was forced too early.
Remus, one of the exposed infants left with no mother, kept alive at the teat of a wolf, reared by the wild because no human arms were there. The form implies a task: to let human warmth replace the makeshift warmth one survived on.
- Essence
- The Unfed
- Rule
- I had to rear myself from the very start, so I've been braced and alone ever since.
- Body zone
- A chill in the body; an abandonment reared alone
- Archetype
- Remus
- Emotional theme
- Abandonment-anxiety and long grief from earliest deprivation
- Behavioural pattern
- Rearing oneself; bracing alone as though care will not come
- Family dynamic
- A maternal deprivation that left the child to raise itself from the beginning
- Core wound
- I had to rear myself from the very start, so I've been braced and alone ever since.
- Exit
- Letting another's steadiness be leaned on, in place of forced self-reliance.
What is the "Carried: Shivering" pattern?
It shows as an abandonment-anxiety and a low, continuous grief traced to having had to rear oneself from the beginning, a maternal deprivation that left no one to hold or warm the child. The body keeps the chill of it. What it asks for is to let another's steadiness be leaned on now, in place of the self-reliance that was forced too early.
What does "Carried: Shivering" sound like when it shows up?
I raised myself from the very start, and a part of me has been braced and alone ever since.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Shivering"?
Remus, one of the exposed infants left with no mother, kept alive at the teat of a wolf, reared by the wild because no human arms were there. The form implies a task: to let human warmth replace the makeshift warmth one survived on.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.