Carried: Thigh Problems (III)
“Am I up to it? I've never been able to get an answer I trust, so I keep asking.”
On the inward side the question is about one's own force: whether it is there, whether it holds up under load, whether it can be relied on when something depends on it. Receiving is equally hard — support, affection and sexual connection all involve trusting that what arrives will stay — and both difficulties come from the same source. A parent laid an exclusive claim on this life, which left no private supply of strength that belonged to the one living it. What the shape asks for is one weight taken up without a guarantee in advance.
Gideon, asking again for a sign because the previous sign had already stopped counting. The form implies a task: to act on the strength available rather than waiting for proof of it.
- Essence
- The Perennial Child
- Rule
- Whatever I had was theirs, so I never learned the size of it.
- Body zone
- The left thigh; the inward reserve of personal strength
- Archetype
- Gideon
- Emotional theme
- Doubt about one's own potency; difficulty receiving anything
- Behavioural pattern
- Repeated seeking of reassurance; refusal of support, affection and closeness
- Family dynamic
- Parents who laid an exclusive claim on the child, leaving no strength that was privately their own
- Core wound
- Whatever I had was theirs, so I never learned the size of it.
- Exit
- Carrying one load without securing a guarantee beforehand.
What is the "Carried: Thigh Problems (III)" pattern?
On the inward side the question is about one's own force: whether it is there, whether it holds up under load, whether it can be relied on when something depends on it. Receiving is equally hard — support, affection and sexual connection all involve trusting that what arrives will stay — and both difficulties come from the same source. A parent laid an exclusive claim on this life, which left no private supply of strength that belonged to the one living it. What the shape asks for is one weight taken up without a guarantee in advance.
What does "Carried: Thigh Problems (III)" sound like when it shows up?
Am I up to it? I've never been able to get an answer I trust, so I keep asking.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Thigh Problems (III)"?
Gideon, asking again for a sign because the previous sign had already stopped counting. The form implies a task: to act on the strength available rather than waiting for proof of it.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.