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Carried: Thigh Problems (V)

Every time I get near something that would make me larger, it feels like I'd be killing them to take it.

Power in the world is avoided under a private prohibition: developing it would finish something in the parents, so success reads as an act of aggression rather than a natural growth. The result is a career of near-misses, capabilities left undeveloped and openings not taken, all of it experienced as reluctance rather than as obedience. The possessiveness that installed this was intense enough that the child's rise and the parents' diminishment came to look like the same event. What the shape asks for is the two events separated.

The Archetypal Form

Perseus, raised at a distance under a prophecy that his growing up would cost an elder everything. The form implies a task: to grow anyway, and let the prophecy be someone else's fear.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Withheld Fire
Rule
Becoming myself was set up to look like an attack on them.
Classification
Body zone
The outer thigh; strength turned toward impact in the world
Archetype
Perseus
Emotional theme
Shame about one's own potency; guilt attached to succeeding
Behavioural pattern
Systematic success-avoidance; leaving capabilities undeveloped; stopping short of thresholds
Family dynamic
Intensely possessive parenting where the child's advancement was felt as the parents' loss
Core wound
Becoming myself was set up to look like an attack on them.
Exit
Separating one's own growth from the diminishment of the parents, and crossing anyway.
Frequently asked
What is the "Carried: Thigh Problems (V)" pattern?

Power in the world is avoided under a private prohibition: developing it would finish something in the parents, so success reads as an act of aggression rather than a natural growth. The result is a career of near-misses, capabilities left undeveloped and openings not taken, all of it experienced as reluctance rather than as obedience. The possessiveness that installed this was intense enough that the child's rise and the parents' diminishment came to look like the same event. What the shape asks for is the two events separated.

What does "Carried: Thigh Problems (V)" sound like when it shows up?

Every time I get near something that would make me larger, it feels like I'd be killing them to take it.

What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Thigh Problems (V)"?

Perseus, raised at a distance under a prophecy that his growing up would cost an elder everything. The form implies a task: to grow anyway, and let the prophecy be someone else's fear.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.