Carried: Candida (Systemic yeast infection)

It shows as a scatteredness, a coming-apart in several directions at once, so that pulling oneself together to manage life feels out of reach. The disorganisation was learned in a chaotic family that undermined the very capacity to cope, giving no steady centre to organise around. What it asks for is to build one small point of order and let the rest gather to it.

I fly off in all directions and can't seem to gather myself enough to run my own life.

The Cumaean Sibyl, whose true answers were written on leaves that the wind at her cave-mouth blew into disorder, the wisdom real but never gathered into one readable whole. The form implies a task: to gather the scattered leaves into an order one can actually read.