Carried: Lactose Intolerance (Suppressed generation of the enzyme necessary to…)

It runs as an aversion to the maternal, an intense, consistent turning-away from and denigration of the feminine and especially the mothering element, because the actual mothering was absent, aversive, exploitative or untrustworthy. The rejection is a defence against a source of care that only ever harmed. The clinical name is a shape, not a diagnosis. What it asks for is one experience of the nurturing feminine that proves safe.

Anything to do with the mother, the feminine, the softly nurturing, turns my stomach; I push it all away.

Hippolytus, who turned from the whole realm of the feminine and the erotic in devoted revulsion, and was destroyed in the collision with what he had refused. The form implies a task: to let one safe form of the nurturing feminine near.