Carried: Rabbit Fever (Fever, ache, inflamed lymph glands)

It burns on the threat of being left rather than the leaving — resentment arriving early, aimed at whoever is currently in the position to go. Under the heat is a low estimation of the self and an old ruling that joy and affection were allotted to other people; the bitterness protects against a loss treated as certain. The glands swell where the body checks what passes through, and the present arrangement is repeating a shame-run household that rejected first and explained later; what the shape asks for is the difference between a departure feared and a departure happening.

They haven't left yet and I already resent them for it.

Dido on the pyre, turning the fact of being left into a fire that consumes the one who was left. The form implies a task: to let the grief be grief before it converts into a case against everything.