Carried: Tabes Dorsalis (Gradual paralysis and disrupted movement, due to…) (II)

Deviation is treated as fatal, so the life narrows to what has already been approved and stops there. Guilt supplies the reasoning — nothing is forgiven, by others or by oneself, and an unforgiving order is assumed to be watching for the first departure. It was learned as a rigid adaptation to a frightened, narrow household in which one child was the pivot everything else turned on, and where movement in any direction destabilised the whole arrangement. What the shape asks for is one departure small enough to survive and large enough to disprove the rule.

Doing anything differently feels like reaching out a hand and getting it taken off.

Uzzah, who put out a hand to steady what was falling and was struck down for the gesture. The form implies a task: to distinguish the one moment that punished a reach from every moment since.