Carried: Thoracic First Vertebra (Upper Back)

It shows as a collapse of faith in one's own capacity to cope, a sinking into despair and resignation after being handed a weight no child could carry, the running of a broken family. When it became plain the load was too great, hope went out and the body closed against a life that felt like too much. What it asks for is to set down what was never one's to hold, and find the size of a load one can actually bear.

I was made to carry a family I couldn't hold up, and somewhere in the trying I gave up on the whole thing.

Elijah under the solitary tree, spent from carrying more than one man could, asking only that it end. The form implies a task: to be fed and let rest before deciding the whole of life is too much.