Pushed away: Acryllic
“Every room I walk into, I'm working out how long before they turn.”
It lives braced for expulsion, reading the group for the moment its welcome gets withdrawn, and treats belonging anywhere as a temporary clerical error due to be corrected. The mother it grew up with reacted to it as something foreign and morally alarming, and that reading generalised outward until the whole arrangement of the world looked equally likely to eject it. What it asks for is to stay inside one group past the point where the turn was expected and did not come.
It echoes Grettir, outlawed and outlawed again, feared in every district he crossed, ending on an island because no settlement would keep him. The form implies a task: to find out whether the outlawry has been renewed by anybody but himself.
- Essence
- Wrong at the Root
- Rule
- The first person who met me treated me as something that shouldn't be here.
- Substance / Activity
- Acryllic
- Archetype
- Grettir
- Emotional theme
- Expulsion expected as a matter of course
- Behavioural pattern
- Cultural outsiderhood; bracing for ostracism; distrust of the whole arrangement
- Family dynamic
- Emotionally abusive mother who reacted to the child as alien and morally alarming
- Core wound
- The first person who met me treated me as something that shouldn't be here.
- Exit
- Staying inside one group past the point where the turn was expected.
What is the "Pushed away: Acryllic" pattern?
It lives braced for expulsion, reading the group for the moment its welcome gets withdrawn, and treats belonging anywhere as a temporary clerical error due to be corrected. The mother it grew up with reacted to it as something foreign and morally alarming, and that reading generalised outward until the whole arrangement of the world looked equally likely to eject it. What it asks for is to stay inside one group past the point where the turn was expected and did not come.
What does "Pushed away: Acryllic" sound like when it shows up?
Every room I walk into, I'm working out how long before they turn.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Acryllic"?
It echoes Grettir, outlawed and outlawed again, feared in every district he crossed, ending on an island because no settlement would keep him. The form implies a task: to find out whether the outlawry has been renewed by anybody but himself.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.
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