Pushed away: Figs
“I've stepped back from the whole thing. Food, company, all of it. It's cleaner this way.”
It refuses nourishment in every direction at once, plenty, pleasure, desire and company alike, in what amounts to a withdrawal from life rather than from any particular part of it, with a hardness aimed at the female register in the middle of it. A severely rejecting family produced a settled conviction of being something wrong, and a person who believes that finds the most consistent solution is to stop taking part. What it asks for is one ordinary human transaction completed in full, on the assumption that participation is permitted.
It echoes Angulimala in the forest years, convinced he was past any possibility of being received, avoided by everybody and avoiding everybody, until somebody walked toward him rather than away. The form implies a task: to let one person walk toward him.
- Essence
- Wrong at the Root
- Rule
- I was made to understand that what I am should not be out among people.
- Substance / Activity
- Figs
- Archetype
- Angulimala
- Emotional theme
- Life declined by someone convinced they are wrong at the root
- Behavioural pattern
- Refusal of nourishment, abundance, joy and sexuality; withdrawal from participation itself
- Family dynamic
- Severely rejecting family that produced a conviction of being fundamentally bad
- Core wound
- I was made to understand that what I am should not be out among people.
- Exit
- Completing one ordinary human transaction on the assumption that taking part is permitted.
What is the "Pushed away: Figs" pattern?
It refuses nourishment in every direction at once, plenty, pleasure, desire and company alike, in what amounts to a withdrawal from life rather than from any particular part of it, with a hardness aimed at the female register in the middle of it. A severely rejecting family produced a settled conviction of being something wrong, and a person who believes that finds the most consistent solution is to stop taking part. What it asks for is one ordinary human transaction completed in full, on the assumption that participation is permitted.
What does "Pushed away: Figs" sound like when it shows up?
I've stepped back from the whole thing. Food, company, all of it. It's cleaner this way.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Figs"?
It echoes Angulimala in the forest years, convinced he was past any possibility of being received, avoided by everybody and avoiding everybody, until somebody walked toward him rather than away. The form implies a task: to let one person walk toward him.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.