Pushed away: Fish
“Whatever I made would have my hands on it, and that's the problem.”
It withholds its output from the world, declining to build, contribute or extend anything into the future, and keeps intimacy off for the same reason, since both would put something of itself into circulation. Severe condemnation from before birth onward produced a conviction of being not merely inadequate but disqualified, and a person who believes the source is contaminated concludes that the product must be too. What it asks for is one small contribution released without a judgement on the maker attached to it.
It echoes the third servant, who took the one talent he had been given and put it in the ground, and explained afterwards that he had done it because he knew what kind of master he was dealing with. The form implies a task: to examine where the description of the master came from.
- Essence
- Wrong at the Root
- Rule
- I was told what I was before I made anything, so I stopped making things.
- Substance / Activity
- Fish
- Archetype
- The Third Servant
- Emotional theme
- Output withheld because the source is believed disqualified
- Behavioural pattern
- Refusal to generate or contribute, in the present or toward the future; intimacy-deflection; avoidance of the sacred
- Family dynamic
- Severe maternal condemnation and rejection from the intrauterine period onward
- Core wound
- I was told what I was before I made anything, so I stopped making things.
- Exit
- Releasing one small contribution without a judgement on the maker attached.
What is the "Pushed away: Fish" pattern?
It withholds its output from the world, declining to build, contribute or extend anything into the future, and keeps intimacy off for the same reason, since both would put something of itself into circulation. Severe condemnation from before birth onward produced a conviction of being not merely inadequate but disqualified, and a person who believes the source is contaminated concludes that the product must be too. What it asks for is one small contribution released without a judgement on the maker attached to it.
What does "Pushed away: Fish" sound like when it shows up?
Whatever I made would have my hands on it, and that's the problem.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Fish"?
It echoes the third servant, who took the one talent he had been given and put it in the ground, and explained afterwards that he had done it because he knew what kind of master he was dealing with. The form implies a task: to examine where the description of the master came from.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.