Pushed away: Hazel Nuts
“I'd rather not know what I'm actually like, thanks.”
It declines to understand itself, keeping insight short and company shorter, on the working assumption that anything found in there would be foul. A denigrating household starting before birth supplied the assumption early, and since no examination has ever been carried out, the assumption has never had to survive contact with evidence. What it asks for is one honest look taken at a small part of itself, with somebody trustworthy present.
It echoes Oedipus in the moment after the finding, when he chose to stop seeing rather than go on looking at what he had turned out to be. The form implies a task: to keep the eyes open for the part that comes after the finding.
- Essence
- Untrusted Judgment
- Rule
- I was told what was in me before I could look, and I never checked.
- Substance / Activity
- Hazel nuts
- Archetype
- Oedipus
- Emotional theme
- Self-knowledge refused on the assumption of what it would show
- Behavioural pattern
- Systematic awareness-avoidance; refusal of involvement; solitary living
- Family dynamic
- Denigrating, dysfunctional family from the intrauterine period on
- Core wound
- I was told what was in me before I could look, and I never checked.
- Exit
- Taking one honest look at a small part of oneself, with somebody trustworthy present.
What is the "Pushed away: Hazel Nuts" pattern?
It declines to understand itself, keeping insight short and company shorter, on the working assumption that anything found in there would be foul. A denigrating household starting before birth supplied the assumption early, and since no examination has ever been carried out, the assumption has never had to survive contact with evidence. What it asks for is one honest look taken at a small part of itself, with somebody trustworthy present.
What does "Pushed away: Hazel Nuts" sound like when it shows up?
I'd rather not know what I'm actually like, thanks.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Hazel Nuts"?
It echoes Oedipus in the moment after the finding, when he chose to stop seeing rather than go on looking at what he had turned out to be. The form implies a task: to keep the eyes open for the part that comes after the finding.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.
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