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Pushed away: Ivy

People are disappointing at a rate that stopped surprising me years ago.

It arranges a life with very few people in it, and the organising feeling is not fear but distaste, a low disgust that finds most company faintly soiling and most motives cheap. Parenting that could not be trusted at any point supplied the evidence early, and disgust holds up better than hurt, since it puts the problem out there rather than in here. What it asks for is one person kept close long enough to become specific rather than representative.

The Archetypal Form

It echoes Timon, who kept an open house until he learned what his guests were, and went out to live in a cave with a spade and a grudge against the species. The form implies a task: to hold the grudge against the specific guests.

The Algorithm
Essence
Betrayed Order
Rule
Nobody there was what they appeared to be, so I stopped granting anyone the benefit.
Classification
Substance / Activity
Ivy
Archetype
Timon
Emotional theme
Distaste substituted for injury
Behavioural pattern
Isolation-seeking; distrust and disgust toward people generally
Family dynamic
Intensely untrustworthy parenting that supplied the evidence early
Core wound
Nobody there was what they appeared to be, so I stopped granting anyone the benefit.
Exit
Keeping one person close until they become specific rather than representative.
Frequently asked
What is the "Pushed away: Ivy" pattern?

It arranges a life with very few people in it, and the organising feeling is not fear but distaste, a low disgust that finds most company faintly soiling and most motives cheap. Parenting that could not be trusted at any point supplied the evidence early, and disgust holds up better than hurt, since it puts the problem out there rather than in here. What it asks for is one person kept close long enough to become specific rather than representative.

What does "Pushed away: Ivy" sound like when it shows up?

People are disappointing at a rate that stopped surprising me years ago.

What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Ivy"?

It echoes Timon, who kept an open house until he learned what his guests were, and went out to live in a cave with a spade and a grudge against the species. The form implies a task: to hold the grudge against the specific guests.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.

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