Pushed away: Nasal Sprays
“I did the funeral, the paperwork and the thank-you cards. I haven't cried.”
It holds grief above the waterline out of long habit, keeping composure through events that warrant none, and the composure has been necessary because there has been nobody to be uncomposed in front of. A whole life spent going it alone makes weeping look less like relief and more like a risk taken in an empty room. What it asks for is one witnessed hour in which nothing has to be held.
It echoes Thokk, the single figure who would not weep for the dead god when the whole world was asked to weep him back, so that he stayed where he was. The form implies a task: to find out what one tear is holding shut.
- Essence
- The Withheld Fire
- Rule
- There was never anyone there to fall apart in front of.
- Substance / Activity
- Nasal sprays
- Archetype
- Thokk
- Emotional theme
- Grief held down; solitude in the carrying
- Behavioural pattern
- Suppression of mourning; composure maintained long past its usefulness
- Family dynamic
- A life spent going it alone, with nobody available to grieve in front of
- Core wound
- There was never anyone there to fall apart in front of.
- Exit
- One witnessed hour in which nothing has to be held.
What is the "Pushed away: Nasal Sprays" pattern?
It holds grief above the waterline out of long habit, keeping composure through events that warrant none, and the composure has been necessary because there has been nobody to be uncomposed in front of. A whole life spent going it alone makes weeping look less like relief and more like a risk taken in an empty room. What it asks for is one witnessed hour in which nothing has to be held.
What does "Pushed away: Nasal Sprays" sound like when it shows up?
I did the funeral, the paperwork and the thank-you cards. I haven't cried.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Nasal Sprays"?
It echoes Thokk, the single figure who would not weep for the dead god when the whole world was asked to weep him back, so that he stayed where he was. The form implies a task: to find out what one tear is holding shut.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.
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