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Pushed away: Quince; Quince Juice

Pleasure is a door I had bricked up, and the house is quieter for it.

It suppresses itself as a matter of policy, holding off joy, closeness and desire in a way that has the shape of principle and the effect of a long fast. The rule came from a moralistic and rejecting household where the body and its wants were the standing evidence against a person, so denial became defence and credential at once. What it asks for is one appetite met plainly, without the accounting that usually follows.

The Archetypal Form

It echoes Simeon on his pillar, who put a stone column between himself and everything the world had to offer and stayed up there for decades. The form implies a task: to ask what the height is keeping off, besides temptation.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Unallotted
Rule
Wanting anything was the proof they were right about me.
Classification
Substance / Activity
Quince; quince juice
Archetype
Simeon Stylites
Emotional theme
Denial held as principle and as credential
Behavioural pattern
Systematic self-suppression; avoidance of joy, intimacy and sexuality
Family dynamic
Highly moralistic and rejecting household in which the body was the evidence against the person
Core wound
Wanting anything was the proof they were right about me.
Exit
Meeting one appetite plainly, without accounting for it afterwards.
Frequently asked
What is the "Pushed away: Quince; Quince Juice" pattern?

It suppresses itself as a matter of policy, holding off joy, closeness and desire in a way that has the shape of principle and the effect of a long fast. The rule came from a moralistic and rejecting household where the body and its wants were the standing evidence against a person, so denial became defence and credential at once. What it asks for is one appetite met plainly, without the accounting that usually follows.

What does "Pushed away: Quince; Quince Juice" sound like when it shows up?

Pleasure is a door I had bricked up, and the house is quieter for it.

What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Quince; Quince Juice"?

It echoes Simeon on his pillar, who put a stone column between himself and everything the world had to offer and stayed up there for decades. The form implies a task: to ask what the height is keeping off, besides temptation.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.

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