Pushed away: Raspberries; Raspberry Juice
“I've been braced so long that standing down feels like being caught out.”
It holds a defensive crouch permanently, keeping feeling at a distance and closeness further still, and treats any period without difficulty as the interval before the next thing rather than as a condition in its own right. The household was dangerous enough, and the care inside it compromised enough, that being braced was correct at the time, and a posture that was correct for years does not release on the day the danger ends. What it asks for is one stretch of ordinary calm allowed to be exactly what it appears to be.
It echoes Elijah after the mountain, who ran into the wilderness certain he was still being hunted, and lay down under a tree, and was fed before anything was asked of him, and heard the thing he had come for only once the wind and the fire had gone quiet. The form implies a task: to stay for the quiet part.
- Essence
- The Sentinel
- Rule
- Being ready for it was the only thing that ever helped, so I never stopped.
- Substance / Activity
- Raspberries; raspberry juice
- Archetype
- Elijah
- Emotional theme
- A defensive posture kept long past the danger
- Behavioural pattern
- Struggle maintained as a condition; deflection of feeling, love and intimacy
- Family dynamic
- Severely dysfunctional household with care that carried harm inside it
- Core wound
- Being ready for it was the only thing that ever helped, so I never stopped.
- Exit
- Letting one stretch of ordinary calm be exactly what it appears to be.
What is the "Pushed away: Raspberries; Raspberry Juice" pattern?
It holds a defensive crouch permanently, keeping feeling at a distance and closeness further still, and treats any period without difficulty as the interval before the next thing rather than as a condition in its own right. The household was dangerous enough, and the care inside it compromised enough, that being braced was correct at the time, and a posture that was correct for years does not release on the day the danger ends. What it asks for is one stretch of ordinary calm allowed to be exactly what it appears to be.
What does "Pushed away: Raspberries; Raspberry Juice" sound like when it shows up?
I've been braced so long that standing down feels like being caught out.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Raspberries; Raspberry Juice"?
It echoes Elijah after the mountain, who ran into the wilderness certain he was still being hunted, and lay down under a tree, and was fed before anything was asked of him, and heard the thing he had come for only once the wind and the fire had gone quiet. The form implies a task: to stay for the quiet part.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.