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Pushed away: Violets

The moment somebody starts looking after me, I want out of the building.

It declines to get better and declines to commit, holding off love, closeness and anything sacred, because all of those arrive in the form of a hand reaching toward it and that hand has a history. Mothering that was intrusive and imposed its care regardless of what was wanted taught it that being tended is a form of being taken over, so remaining slightly unwell keeps the tending at a manageable distance. What it asks for is one piece of care accepted from somebody who asks first.

The Archetypal Form

It echoes Rapunzel, kept in a tower by a woman who called the keeping love and meant it, and who never once asked what the girl in it wanted. The form implies a task: to find out whether every hand that reaches belongs to the one who locked the door.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Sealed
Rule
Being looked after there meant being taken over.
Classification
Substance / Activity
Violets
Archetype
Rapunzel
Emotional theme
Care remembered as invasion
Behavioural pattern
Prevention of one's own healing; commitment-avoidance; rejection of love, intimacy and the sacred
Family dynamic
Severely intrusive, care-imposing mothering that overrode what the child actually wanted
Core wound
Being looked after there meant being taken over.
Exit
Accepting one piece of care from somebody who asks first.
Frequently asked
What is the "Pushed away: Violets" pattern?

It declines to get better and declines to commit, holding off love, closeness and anything sacred, because all of those arrive in the form of a hand reaching toward it and that hand has a history. Mothering that was intrusive and imposed its care regardless of what was wanted taught it that being tended is a form of being taken over, so remaining slightly unwell keeps the tending at a manageable distance. What it asks for is one piece of care accepted from somebody who asks first.

What does "Pushed away: Violets" sound like when it shows up?

The moment somebody starts looking after me, I want out of the building.

What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Violets"?

It echoes Rapunzel, kept in a tower by a woman who called the keeping love and meant it, and who never once asked what the girl in it wanted. The form implies a task: to find out whether every hand that reaches belongs to the one who locked the door.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.