Carried: Dehydration (Severe thirstiness)

It shows as a chronic sense of imminent disaster, a fish-out-of-water dread that one lacks what the next crisis will require, so the body stays on a low alert that never fully stands down. It was set in an unpredictable, destructive family whose sabotage ran underground, where no one could tell when the next blow would land. Where it runs to the extreme of true depletion, its care belongs with someone trained to help. What it asks for is to test, once, whether the present danger is real, and let the alert stand down when it isn't.

I live as if life itself is one long threat, sure that any moment something disastrous will come and I won't be equal to it.

Hagar, sent into the desert with her child and an emptying skin of water, waiting to die of thirst where no help seemed to be coming. The form implies a task: to look up and find the well that the panic had hidden.