Pushed away: Gladiolas
“I work extremely hard at seeming like someone who doesn't have to.”
It inflates with visible effort, reaching for the impressive version of every account of itself, and the strain shows, which is the particular difficulty here: the display is strenuous rather than smooth, and other people can see the work in it. Being largely overlooked by the mother in a household organised around the father's standing taught it that presence has to be manufactured, and manufacturing is laborious when there is no early experience of simply having been noticed. What it asks for is one hour of taking up an ordinary amount of room and finding out that nobody leaves.
It echoes Trishanku, who insisted on ascending to heaven in his own body, was pushed back from the gate, and ended up suspended between the two skies in a heaven built specially to hold him, upside down. The form implies a task: to come down and stand on the ground with everyone else.
- Essence
- Earned Worth
- Rule
- Nobody looked at me for free, so I have been paying for it ever since.
- Substance / Activity
- Gladiolas
- Archetype
- Trishanku
- Emotional theme
- Presence believed to require manufacture
- Behavioural pattern
- Strenuous self-inflation; visible effort to impress, over an underlying sense of worthlessness
- Family dynamic
- Largely ignored by the mother in a patriarchal household organised around the father's standing
- Core wound
- Nobody looked at me for free, so I have been paying for it ever since.
- Exit
- Taking up an ordinary amount of room for one hour and finding that nobody leaves.
What is the "Pushed away: Gladiolas" pattern?
It inflates with visible effort, reaching for the impressive version of every account of itself, and the strain shows, which is the particular difficulty here: the display is strenuous rather than smooth, and other people can see the work in it. Being largely overlooked by the mother in a household organised around the father's standing taught it that presence has to be manufactured, and manufacturing is laborious when there is no early experience of simply having been noticed. What it asks for is one hour of taking up an ordinary amount of room and finding out that nobody leaves.
What does "Pushed away: Gladiolas" sound like when it shows up?
I work extremely hard at seeming like someone who doesn't have to.
What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Gladiolas"?
It echoes Trishanku, who insisted on ascending to heaven in his own body, was pushed back from the gate, and ended up suspended between the two skies in a heaven built specially to hold him, upside down. The form implies a task: to come down and stand on the ground with everyone else.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.
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