Carried: Gastritis (Irritation of the stomach lining)
“I'm worn down carrying demands I never wanted, and I'm too afraid of being cast off to refuse a single one.”
It shows as an over-burdening, a life given over to demands felt as exploitation, carried grudgingly because refusing them risks rejection or abandonment, while one's own true self and wishes go unspoken. The obedience is bought with the fear of losing one's place. It was set by a family whose love was made contingent on performing and on meeting their needs first. What it asks for is to risk one refusal and find that the place does not vanish.
Boxer the workhorse, whose answer to everything was 'I will work harder,' who bore every load without complaint and was carted off the moment his strength gave out. The form implies a task: to refuse a load before one is worked to the point of being discarded.
- Essence
- Earned Keeping
- Rule
- My place depended on performing, so I'm too afraid of being cast off to refuse the demands that wear me down.
- Body zone
- The stomach lining raw; a life over-burdened
- Archetype
- Boxer
- Emotional theme
- Resentment under imposed demands; fear of refusing
- Behavioural pattern
- Grudgingly carrying exploitative demands; leaving one's true self unspoken
- Family dynamic
- A family whose love was contingent on performing and meeting their needs first
- Core wound
- My place depended on performing, so I'm too afraid of being cast off to refuse the demands that wear me down.
- Exit
- Risking one refusal and finding that one's place does not vanish.
What is the "Carried: Gastritis (Irritation of the stomach lining)" pattern?
It shows as an over-burdening, a life given over to demands felt as exploitation, carried grudgingly because refusing them risks rejection or abandonment, while one's own true self and wishes go unspoken. The obedience is bought with the fear of losing one's place. It was set by a family whose love was made contingent on performing and on meeting their needs first. What it asks for is to risk one refusal and find that the place does not vanish.
What does "Carried: Gastritis (Irritation of the stomach lining)" sound like when it shows up?
I'm worn down carrying demands I never wanted, and I'm too afraid of being cast off to refuse a single one.
What is the archetypal form of "Carried: Gastritis (Irritation of the stomach lining)"?
Boxer the workhorse, whose answer to everything was 'I will work harder,' who bore every load without complaint and was carted off the moment his strength gave out. The form implies a task: to refuse a load before one is worked to the point of being discarded.
This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.