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Pushed away: Larkspur

I want them badly right up until I've had them.

It pursues sexual contact at volume and with real appetite, and the appetite is bound up with contempt, so the wanting collapses the moment the other person becomes an actual person with a claim. A severely patriarchal household, or a mother who took the person's life in a direction of her own choosing, established the female as something to be overcome rather than met, and conquest is the only form of contact that arrangement permits. What it asks for is to stay in one connection past the point where the appetite drops.

The Archetypal Form

It echoes Don Juan, who kept a list, who wanted every one of them entirely and none of them the following morning, and who could not be stopped by any argument that treated the women as real. The form implies a task: to stay for one morning.

The Algorithm
Essence
The Misplaced Shame
Rule
The female was the thing to get past in that house, never the thing to meet.
Classification
Substance / Activity
Larkspur
Archetype
Don Juan
Emotional theme
Desire bound to contempt for its object
Behavioural pattern
Exploitative and repetitive sexuality; self-immersion; rejection of the feminine
Family dynamic
Severely patriarchal family, or a mother who redirected the person's course to suit herself
Core wound
The female was the thing to get past in that house, never the thing to meet.
Exit
Staying in one connection past the point where the appetite drops.
Frequently asked
What is the "Pushed away: Larkspur" pattern?

It pursues sexual contact at volume and with real appetite, and the appetite is bound up with contempt, so the wanting collapses the moment the other person becomes an actual person with a claim. A severely patriarchal household, or a mother who took the person's life in a direction of her own choosing, established the female as something to be overcome rather than met, and conquest is the only form of contact that arrangement permits. What it asks for is to stay in one connection past the point where the appetite drops.

What does "Pushed away: Larkspur" sound like when it shows up?

I want them badly right up until I've had them.

What is the archetypal form of "Pushed away: Larkspur"?

It echoes Don Juan, who kept a list, who wanted every one of them entirely and none of them the following morning, and who could not be stopped by any argument that treated the women as real. The form implies a task: to stay for one morning.

This is a pattern. Not a verdict.
It appears in many lives.