Pushed away: Heartsease

It carries a continuous low guilt with no attached offence, and steps around anything sacred for the practical reason that approaching would mean presenting itself somewhere a judgement could be entered. A shaming, suspicious household with a father who watched and a mother who agreed produced the sense of being permanently in the wrong without ever specifying the charge, which is the version that cannot be answered. What it asks for is to write the charge down, in full, and read it.

I feel guilty most days and I couldn't tell you what for.

It echoes Josef K., arrested one morning without being told the offence, who spent everything he had on a case whose charge was never read out to him. The form implies a task: to ask for the charge before preparing any further defence.