Pushed away: Walnuts

It withholds its own initiative on principle, producing little, starting nothing and keeping a cool distance from involvement, with a hardness in it that turns aside both joy and inquiry. A mother who despised the whole masculine register made assertion into something that would cost her son or daughter her regard, so the safest arrangement was to shut down the generative side entirely and call the shutdown a preference. What it asks for is one thing begun and carried far enough to be visible.

I could put something into this. I'm choosing not to, and I'm comfortable with that.

It echoes Jonah, who received a commission and boarded a ship going the other way, and who sat outside the city afterwards, hot and unwilling, arguing about a plant. The form implies a task: to notice how much energy the not-going is taking.