Pushed away: Kidney Beans

It declines to extend the line in any direction, keeping desire, partnership and the whole question of children at a distance, and the refusal reaches into work as well, since anything that grows past a certain point starts to look like continuation. The household was engulfing and disordered enough to be frightening, and the conclusion drawn early was that this material should not be passed on, which is a decision made about oneself as much as about any future person. What it asks for is to separate what deserves to end from what is only being punished for its address.

Whatever this is that runs in my family, it stops with me.

It echoes Bhishma, who swore off marriage and children to settle a difficulty that was not his, and then stayed in that house for the rest of a very long life, holding to a vow nobody had asked him to keep. The form implies a task: to ask who the vow was actually made for.